I had a bit of a meltdown last week because I faced the sad reality that I literally have no friends (haha, so sad)
I have acquaintances, but no one I can call and grab a coffee with, back in high school I had my best friend – who obviously wasn’t my ‘best’ friend because she upped and left once I wouldn’t drive her around anymore.
As we grow, the hardest thing to come to terms with is losing friends. Why though? maybe because we are so consumed with other parts of life like career, school, relationships, bills, houses, saving etc
It’s awkward sometimes because I can’t go advertise on social media “help me, I need friends” people are gonna think something is wrong with me!
No adult wants to admit that they have no friends! People are gonna wonder why you have no friends and I get anxiety sometimes when people say “Hey, you should go hang out with so and so” And I’m like “uhhh, no that’s so weird” and look lets all be honest with ourselves here …. girls are bitches, is that controversial to say? maybe… oops. Does it make it any better to admit that even I am a bitch sometimes?
When I see groups of girls hanging out I can literally smell the fakeness between them, the judgey eyes and everything else that comes along with it.
Maybe, I struggle to make friends because I’m such an introvert, I get shy when I meet new people and internally crawl up into a ball because I hate small talk.
In all honesty, people are only friends in high school because they are literally forced to be with each other 5 days a week for 7 hours, once that is over – it is difficult, people don’t have the time anymore to actively look for friends plus its embarrassing
I don’t know, I am honestly okay with the fact that I have no friends because I actually enjoy being alone but it sucks because at my wedding, I won’t have lines of bridesmaids and speeches, but i’m okay with that because at least at my wedding i’ll be surrounded by people who actually love me.
I don’t know, maybe one day i’ll be forced by my child to be friends with their friends mother – does that even make sense?
But until then…i’ll just be here trying to awkwardly make friends as an adult (woo hoo)