Here I am at 21 years old, sitting in my office at work in which I am definitely supposed to be doing work at, but I am lost.
These past 9 months of 2018, I have learnt a lot, from falling in love with the most amazing man, to leaving the nest for the first time and leaving my university degree for a month to travel across Europe, I sit here today after constant pondering of ‘what the hell am I doing?! and What the hell am I going to do with my life?’
For all our schooling years, we dread waking up early in the morning to spend a whole day at school where we are taught that after you finish high school you will magically know all the answers in the world and what you are going to become and well at least for me it didn’t end up working out like that.
Last night I cried to my boyfriend because I honestly have no idea what I am doing and I don’t wan’t to seem like a disappointment, and this morning on my way to this office where I sit every day, I cried on the phone to my mum because again, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I’M DOING, I don’t know where my strengths are, I don’t know what I excel at but what I do know is that I like talking, and writing, and going to the gym and I do know that I want to be something BIG one day….but i’m really struggling to find what that is.
I also know that I have stuffed up in the past and made mistakes but every day I come to this office and no it is not the worst place in the world, and I am thankful to work here, but one thing I am certain on is that I look around this office and see tonnes of lifeless faces and individuals with no love and excitement in their life and in my life, I aim to do everything with love….after all, I do have that quote tattooed my body!
My wish is that this blog assists every other girl and guy out there who also has no idea what is going on, those that are working those full time jobs just because it pays your bills but you feel like your going no where and you don’t even enjoy what you are doing!
Life is too short to not enjoy it.
I am just a young girl trying to navigate my way through this thing called life and I know that a lot of other people are too.
So for all of you who are going through the ‘What the hell do I want to do with myself’ stage, I hope this helps you
Thank you for taking the time to read this and welcome to LostMillennial
- Elissa
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